may 11, 2019?

the date has a question mark on it because it doesn't feel like 2019. for me it still feels like early 2000s. thats when said innocence was taken from me. you probably think i was sexually assaulted or abused. i wasn't. something even more vile and corrupt happened on that day, my blood turned thick and black and i didn't realize what was growing inside me. i don't think anyone knows about this. but things like crosses and holy water hurt me and sometimes the sun. my roommate at boarding school thinks im evil and he thinks i almost killed him once. he's crazy. in a good way. he's powerful and smells like smoke and naive. more coming soon. bye.